lets see
You isolate yourself from society and close within,that's one of the causes for depression
you want to be saved,that's a spark of life within you
my advice is
-Go out and mix with people,socialise,go to the park,clubs
-get a shrink,you need someone to talk about your problem someone who will understand
-Depression isn't something you should be ashamed off,millions of people have it
-start doing sports because the cause of depression is caused by a chemical disbalance,when you sport,your brain will create natural brain drugs that will fix the disbalance