Hi guys,
Yes its 6 in the morning and I have been up for the last 2 hours crying with the pain in my legs, 8 months ago I bent down to put my boots on and OMG the pain just overwhelmed me and I collapsed on the floor, it took the dr 3 hours to come to my house and issue me with an injection of pain relief. I have now been suffering ever since, had total loss of feeling in my right leg, I have been on so many painkillers and muscle relaxants that I think the drs have ran out of ideas, I eventally got sent to Physio about 3 months ago, they after 5 weeks decided they couldn't do anything for me and requested and MRI, I received this on Tuesday of this week and have already came back to tell me I need surgery ASAP as the disk that has slipped is pressing on my nerves and is also putting pressure on my bladderand bowel and that if I dont get it done soon they are concerned that I may become incontinent, I am 43 and have two kids, I run my own business with my husband (who works away Monday to Friday all over Britain) and have relied heavily on my family over past 7 - 8 months. I cried all day today when I got the phone call and have been so scared as to consequences that the operation may have on me and my family as my poor kids, they haven't had much of a mother over the last 8 months and that makes me feel guilty.
I have spent the last 2 hours reading through this forum and actually feel quite positive now, thanks to all who have posted, its good to realise im not the only one who is going through this pain and the anxiety. As someone already stated I would rather be in labour than have this pain, its unbearable 24/7, I have absolutely no pain relief at any point during the day, I can hardly walk some days and have been put back on crutches, I sleep for a couple of hours at a time and wake up in complete agony, i have some time had to shout on either my husband or my older daughter to help me out of bed, how embarassing that my daughter has to help me, shes only 9, I should be the one helping her.
Although the NHS have said that I need this ASAP don't know how long their ASAP is, they physio has requested an urgent appointment with the spinal unit as well as the orthopaedics, should I wait and see how long this will take or should I go to my dr and get a referral letter and go private?
Sorry this has turned into war and peace, but I am so greatful for reading this forum and getting this off my chest has also helped me, as my husband is one of these people with the attitude of get up and get on with it and doesn;t understand the pain.